During my teen years, I was an active kid – always outdoors, climbing, swimming and playing tennis. I guess I should have known I was prone to weight gain, my mother wasn’t a small woman by any standards, but she brought me up to eat alright, stay away from junk food, to not eat too much sugar and so on, and I was okay.

I got married 9 years ago at the age of 24. I was a 130lb beautiful and happy bride. When I fell pregnant with my first child 2 years later, I gained 25 pounds during the pregnancy. I managed to lose 5 of them in a dismal attempt to work out and watch my daughter at the same time. It’s hard work being a mom. I began my first diet and started along a long and lonely road to a nightmare that never ended. But still, I juggled my husband, my kid and my body often forgetting the latter, and things were fine.

For an entire year I managed to keep my weight at 148lb. I fell pregnant again, this time gaining 35 pounds during those 9 months. And another 20 after my son was born. It was just impossible to keep both of them in order and still find time to look after myself. I felt unattractive, and began to nurture a deep self loathing for what I had done to myself. My sex life suffered and died, I stopped wearing makeup and trying to make myself look good. What was the point? I was so fat I’d look disgusting no matter what I did. My husband and I fought more and more, we just lost touch with one another. I blamed him for my weight, how he treated me when I hated myself so much and accused him of not loving me anymore. When I look back now I realize it was me who pushed him away, my self pity, my weight made me truly believe I could not be loved at such a size.

We divorced 2 years later, I kept gaining weight eating more than ever before and was diagnosed with depression. “How did it come to this?” I kept asking myself. Still I could not accept responsibility for what I had done to myself, and the despair that came from it fuelled my eating even more. My failed marriage left me with both of my children to take care of alone.

I must have tried 20 different diets and supplements. Some worked a little for a short period of time but then I would give up, and move onto the next best thing months later. There were some supplements that jump-started my hormones and caused my skin to break out and my moods to change constantly. I avoided my friends and stopped going out altogether, because I was embarrassed about my weight. I even neglected my hygiene, and avoided looking in the mirror to often. I kept my size 10’s and 12’s, unable to let go of the perfect weight I once was.

After a year of depression, I realized how badly my kids were affected by my negative attitude. The happy home I thought I was providing was little more than a roof over our heads. They were picking up bad habits from me and until then I had been so self consumed I hadn’t noticed how bad it was actually getting. This was when I decided to make peace with my weight and start over.

I moved into a new house for a fresh start, and made a few fundamental changes in my life. I stopped obsessing about my weight and my divorce, and tried to have a positive attitude for my kids. Our lifestyle improved by spending more time outside and eating healthily. I adopted the habits I wanted them to take through life and began to eat less and exercise more. I even managed to give away those clothes that I hung onto for so long. Within weeks my confidence returned and I felt good about myself and my role as a mother. People noticed the change in me and I was even asked out on a date by one of my colleagues.

When I heard about an organic weight loss supplement called Proactol I decided to try it out. I had nothing to lose now that my mind was in a good place and there wouldn’t be any side effects this time. When I lost 2 pounds after the first week of taking it, I was thrilled but didn’t get my hopes up. I kept losing, between 1 and 3 pounds every week. In the 10months that I used it, I only experienced 2 weeks without any result! Since then I have lost 90 pounds and weigh in at a comfortable 140lb.

I feel sexy, healthy and young again and even though I weigh more now than I did at 25, I am no longer the lazy, miserable woman I once was either.

I believe that everyone has a different genetic make up and that different supplements will work for different people. If you have tried hundreds of supplements with only minor or short term results, then perhaps going organic might work. But before deciding on a supplement, work on yourself and make sure that you are mentally strong enough for whatever lies ahead. Weight loss is a rollercoaster of improvements and failures, all we can do is our best, its getting to that point where we want to that’s hard!